Well tomorrow marks 6 weeks banded and on Sat. I get my first fill!! I think I am ready, yesterday I felt like a bottomless pit!!! I controlled the inner pitmaster but every once in a while there are days when I just can't seem to feel full!!
Now I have to be honest, I am happy, excited, overjoyed and so very very disappointed all at the same time... I am so happy I did this. What a fabulous life change this has been for me so far. I am excited to continue on this journey, discover new ways to live life healthy and become the me on the outside I know I am on the inside. I am overjoyed to share all of this with such fantastic supporters, encouragers and new friends such as yourselves. I am disappointed however with he scale. Maybe I unrealistically idealized the process, but at this point I thought I would be farther along by now... Maybe I am being unrealistic? I honestly thought by my 6 week mark plus my 2 week pre-op I would be down 30 pounds...was wishing it would be closer to 40... I am not!!:/ I am down 27-28 (so close, but so far, scale keeps teetering and I have lost zero this week... In fact I have gained!!! How I don't know, the only change was an increase in work out. Food calories and choices have stayed the same, wafer/crystal light lemonade increased slightly. Portions the same. TOM has been over for a week and a half now so no worries there. But the scale and I seem to be working against each other this week... Very bummed seen as Sat I go weigh in and was really really looking forward to a 30+ weight loss... Such is life...
On the positive side the inches are melting away!! In fact I wish the pounds were melting as quickly as the inches. I know I am doing what I need to be doing and I know my body is very comfortable at tipping the 300 pound mark it lived there for many years, but it is time to move on... Well down from here!!! I realize the regulation of all of this is going to take time to balance, just a little to fixated on a number I guess!!
Tomorrow is a new day right!! Maybe tomorrow is the morning my body decides to let go!! Here is to hoping!!!