I realize all of our Dr. have various beliefs, ideas and ways of working with this band, and though they install the band, they don't use the band as we do. I have also noticed that the scale will drop 4 pounds only to put 2 back over night and then again lose the weight 1 ounce at a time for a period of 2 weeks, when it then drops another 3-4 pounds. Don't get me wrong....I love the weight coming off and I am losing on average 1-2 pounds a week. I am fine with all of this but I can't help but wonder if my body thinks it is starving and this is why it will put 2 pounds back on over night and then drop the same 2 pounds again very, very, very, slowly!!!
Now my Surgeon Dr. said to keep cal count between 800-1000 a day...No worries I have been doing that. I try to flucuate to keep my body guessing as this has been a suggestion. At my last appt. I did not see my surgeon Dr. I saw the other Dr. and he said when I went through my check list with him that I could bump up my cal count to 1100-1200 a day....Here is my struggle....Many of you have also been told 800-1000 and some of you have been told 1100-1200.... Should I try to bump my cal count up to 1100 and see if I get a consistant weight loss with no overnight gain? But then I struggle with the "what if's"...What if that is too many cal and my body just stores all of it and I gain, gain, gain??? What if a couple hundred more cal is all my body really needs to regulate itself and those extra cal push me into the green zone and I am on easy street??? Is there really an easy street??? What is the green zone??? I know what it means technically, but this is what my brain inturpreted the green zone as... " as long as you keep to your meals portioned, your protein and your cal count, and you keep up with your water and workouts, your band does everything else and you just lose, lose, lose???" Now what does the green zone really mean??? And not the technical definition, I know that one...the real definition... I am not in the green zone, so is this how the green zone works??? I feel restriction but go for another check up and fill on Sat..No way can I handle 3 more cc's...I know I can't with the way I feel, but could I use 1cc, or .50cc's??? I don't want be over filled. I could just say lets wait 2 more weeks and see how I feel then....There have been more then a few times these past 10 days when I know I drank to fast, I feel it. You have talked about PB's and slime, I have not exp. any of that and don't want to. I have felt presure when I eat to fast and that hurts...today I think I may have had a tiny slime moment at lunch and I knew I was eating too fast...but I don't want to slime or PB everyday!!! And if I am feeling all of this with the amount I have, do I really want to add to it??? I am thinking no...
So I am head trippen over adding cal...I want to regulate my weight loss, but I don't want to gain weight in the process...My brain tells me to add cal would add weight and that would be 2 steps back, but on the other hand....adding a little bit of cal and weight so my body can regulate may be 5 steps forward??? Do you see how crazy I have made myself over this??? I am way over analyzing everything and just out right trippen!!! So, from you experiences....what do I do??? Obviously first I need to get over myself and then what????
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
Self Torture!!!
So I must be one of those who believes in self torture!!! My calves have been killing me since I did the bleachers at school on Thursday...Yesturday they final started to ease up...so what do I go and do??? Oh yes, I went and did the bleachers at lunch today!!! I am insane!!! and this is what my head said I looked like...
Look at me running up and down the bleachers like a beauty queen!!! Of course we need to dye the hair but perfect body alignment and I even added hand weights!!! Woo Hoo!!! NOT!!!!!
This is what I looked like when I was done....
Oh yes, that is more like it!!! LOL!! It will kill my calves again, I know, but last time it took 15 min , this time it took 12:47 min...I could even feel a difference as I started...I don't know how often I will do this, but it is a good leg workout and it is a quick and fast work out....I don't have a ton of time to do it because after lunch (33 min) PE starts and I don't want to be out there while PE is going on NO THANK YOU!!! but 12 min of good heart rate movement in additon to whatever else I do tonight is a bonus in my book!!! Hubby keeps telling me I need to push myself...If I keep pushing myself and keep bringing my time on the bike or eliptical down and the distance farther then my body will keep getting stronger and the weight will continue to come off....He threatens me that he is going to hire Jillian Michaels to be my trainer because I love her, but only on TV....she would KILL ME!!! and make me cry for sure!!!! He says oh she would kick your A$$ and you would cry but think of how good you would feel when you were all done?? He is right, but for now, I wll stick to the self torture of the bleachers and save Jillian for when we are millionares!!! Hope you are all having a good Monday!!! Loads of love to you all!!
This is what I looked like when I was done....
Oh yes, that is more like it!!! LOL!! It will kill my calves again, I know, but last time it took 15 min , this time it took 12:47 min...I could even feel a difference as I started...I don't know how often I will do this, but it is a good leg workout and it is a quick and fast work out....I don't have a ton of time to do it because after lunch (33 min) PE starts and I don't want to be out there while PE is going on NO THANK YOU!!! but 12 min of good heart rate movement in additon to whatever else I do tonight is a bonus in my book!!! Hubby keeps telling me I need to push myself...If I keep pushing myself and keep bringing my time on the bike or eliptical down and the distance farther then my body will keep getting stronger and the weight will continue to come off....He threatens me that he is going to hire Jillian Michaels to be my trainer because I love her, but only on TV....she would KILL ME!!! and make me cry for sure!!!! He says oh she would kick your A$$ and you would cry but think of how good you would feel when you were all done?? He is right, but for now, I wll stick to the self torture of the bleachers and save Jillian for when we are millionares!!! Hope you are all having a good Monday!!! Loads of love to you all!!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Content...;)
Hello all of my beautiful blog buddies!!! It is a fabulous day here in So. CA... Hubby and I got the backyard yard work knocked out in 2.5 hours this morning...We were done by 10 leaving the rest of this beautiful breezy day to relax and enjoy!! Even the scale was good to me today...Hope you all have a glorious and fun filled weekend...love to you all ;)
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Ten Things Thursday...
Ten Things Thursday....thank you Laura!!
1. I have parent teacher conf. tonight from 5-8...I drive 25 miles to work and 25 miles home...I get out at 2:00....with gas prices so high and I drive a Yukon XL I am staying at school....Makes for a very lllloooonnnngggg day!!
2. Due to my lllllooooonnnnggggg day....I will not be able to go to the gym, therefore I brought workout clothes and I walked a mile on the track and then went up and down the bleachers on both the visitor and home sides, that is 10 ups and downs....took me 15 minutes and let me tell you my quads are already screamming at me!!! But it felt good and helped pass the time....BONUS got my workout in!!
3. No 1. did not pass her permit test last week...this is my all brains and no common sense child, she missed 12, your allowed to miss 8...she is taking it again today with Hubby....We shall see how she does this week, haven't seen her study much!!!
4. I had my second fill on Sat. I am now 6cc's full in my 14 cc band. I feel a difference and there is restriction but not as much as I would like...I go in 2 more weeks for another check up and we will see then what the next steps are....I still feel hungry at times...not always but at times, and my stomach is making soooo much noise lately...It has never made so much noise, not even on pre-op???
5. I have decided there is no point in trying to figure out what the scale is saying to you because it makes no sense. I weighed in at 290.9 on Sunday and then Monday without changing anything, adding anything or working out less it said I weighed 292.2??? How do I gain over night??? So I have decided my body needs a little bit extra time to realize, "Oh yeah, we are losing weight I don't have to hold on to this. We aren't starving we are just letting go"...Let Go BODY!!! Let Go!!
6. I have enjoyed so many posts this week by so many different bloggers that I have felt inferrior to post myself. There have been some great thoughts put out there and some touching stories and I just have not felt any of mine where up to par this week...I was really excited Thursday was here because I knew I could do 10 things and fit right in!!! Some weeks are like that...
7. My gel mainicure is going strong...I am praying for one more week out of it!!! We are at the end of week 2 and no chips, no cracks, no breaks!!! I love how my nails look... I have never had my own long nails, always fake ones, but this protein is awesome and my nails are beautiful!!! I am so excited and the gel keeps them strong. The growth line at the cuticle is getting a bit large so one more week is about all I will be able to do, but I think it will work out.
8. I had my 2 month bandaversary on the 6th...Almost 35 pounds down...Still hoping to be below 285 by buddy boys b-day on the 22nd. With the way my body is fighting me on letting the weight go however, we shall see...At this point I will be happy to be in the 280's!!!
9. I will be honest and say I do get frustrated at times that the weight seems to be coming off so slowly. I will go for a week in a half to 2 weeks and lose nothing, then bam 4 pounds down, only to have 1.5 to 2 pounds of that show back up for a couple of days...I don't get this pattern and if I was eating more then 800-1000 cal. a day I would understand it, but I don't....Maybe I am just that sensitive to carbs and should really look into my carb count...Maybe it is the sodium?? Maybe it is just my body trying to deal with everything? Jury is still out on this one, but I hope a verdict is reached soon...
10. Because we have to be here at school until 8:00 tonight, we have minimum day tomorrow!!! Woo Hoo!!! I get out at 12:25 so excited!!! I am ready for a date night with Hubby, I love him so much!!!
Have a great evening and Friday all...xoxo
1. I have parent teacher conf. tonight from 5-8...I drive 25 miles to work and 25 miles home...I get out at 2:00....with gas prices so high and I drive a Yukon XL I am staying at school....Makes for a very lllloooonnnngggg day!!
2. Due to my lllllooooonnnnggggg day....I will not be able to go to the gym, therefore I brought workout clothes and I walked a mile on the track and then went up and down the bleachers on both the visitor and home sides, that is 10 ups and downs....took me 15 minutes and let me tell you my quads are already screamming at me!!! But it felt good and helped pass the time....BONUS got my workout in!!
3. No 1. did not pass her permit test last week...this is my all brains and no common sense child, she missed 12, your allowed to miss 8...she is taking it again today with Hubby....We shall see how she does this week, haven't seen her study much!!!
4. I had my second fill on Sat. I am now 6cc's full in my 14 cc band. I feel a difference and there is restriction but not as much as I would like...I go in 2 more weeks for another check up and we will see then what the next steps are....I still feel hungry at times...not always but at times, and my stomach is making soooo much noise lately...It has never made so much noise, not even on pre-op???
5. I have decided there is no point in trying to figure out what the scale is saying to you because it makes no sense. I weighed in at 290.9 on Sunday and then Monday without changing anything, adding anything or working out less it said I weighed 292.2??? How do I gain over night??? So I have decided my body needs a little bit extra time to realize, "Oh yeah, we are losing weight I don't have to hold on to this. We aren't starving we are just letting go"...Let Go BODY!!! Let Go!!
6. I have enjoyed so many posts this week by so many different bloggers that I have felt inferrior to post myself. There have been some great thoughts put out there and some touching stories and I just have not felt any of mine where up to par this week...I was really excited Thursday was here because I knew I could do 10 things and fit right in!!! Some weeks are like that...
7. My gel mainicure is going strong...I am praying for one more week out of it!!! We are at the end of week 2 and no chips, no cracks, no breaks!!! I love how my nails look... I have never had my own long nails, always fake ones, but this protein is awesome and my nails are beautiful!!! I am so excited and the gel keeps them strong. The growth line at the cuticle is getting a bit large so one more week is about all I will be able to do, but I think it will work out.
8. I had my 2 month bandaversary on the 6th...Almost 35 pounds down...Still hoping to be below 285 by buddy boys b-day on the 22nd. With the way my body is fighting me on letting the weight go however, we shall see...At this point I will be happy to be in the 280's!!!
9. I will be honest and say I do get frustrated at times that the weight seems to be coming off so slowly. I will go for a week in a half to 2 weeks and lose nothing, then bam 4 pounds down, only to have 1.5 to 2 pounds of that show back up for a couple of days...I don't get this pattern and if I was eating more then 800-1000 cal. a day I would understand it, but I don't....Maybe I am just that sensitive to carbs and should really look into my carb count...Maybe it is the sodium?? Maybe it is just my body trying to deal with everything? Jury is still out on this one, but I hope a verdict is reached soon...
10. Because we have to be here at school until 8:00 tonight, we have minimum day tomorrow!!! Woo Hoo!!! I get out at 12:25 so excited!!! I am ready for a date night with Hubby, I love him so much!!!
Have a great evening and Friday all...xoxo
Friday, March 2, 2012
New Blogger
Hi all!!! Stephanee over at Superfluous Simplicity is a re-newed blogger and is being banded on the 7th...Just 5 short days away!!! Check her out if you haven't yet!!! Added support as we all know is so helpful and supportive!!! Hope you all have a great weekend!!;)
BYOC!!!
Thanks to Drazil its BYOC time!
1. Since I talked about psychics this week - I'm curious....if you could see one for free and you could only ask one question - what would it be?
When will Hubby get a perminant teaching job? This RIF crap and lay-off business has gone on long enough....When and Where is this job coming available?? My mental health is shot, my bank account a joke and the world is missing out on a fabulous History teacher!! Come on Job, we need you NOW!!!
2. What's your favorite ice cream flavor and topping?
Well my all time fav is Quarterback Crunch from Thrifty's...my Grammy would take us to get scoops there all the time...Thrifty's is not even in existance anymore and who knows where Quarterback Crunch has gone??? So now I usually get cookies n cream or cookie dough, they are a tie!!! Toppings only on vanilla hot fudge or carmel either one sometimes both with nuts.
3. What's your preferred method of working out? DVDs, an external gym, gym inside your home, classes?
Don't have one. I like DVD's, I go to the gym, I will bike ride or walk outside...It all really depends on my mood and the amount of time I have. I have not done Zumba yet, but I hear it is a hoot, so I will have to try that out. I used to do aerobics all the time when I was in my 20's, but now the gym I go to you have to sign up for the classes they get that full so I just have not bothered...
4. If you work outside the home or if you ever did or will in the future - do you think it's better/easier to work with men or woman? Who do you work mostly with now?
I teach so I work with both men and women. I have found they are equally dramatic and each come with their own set of compromises...I try to get along with everyone and be a team player. I have found that as long as the people I am working with have the same attitude then there are very little issues. It is the glory seeker, or the control freak that I cannot handle. I myself am controling enough...hellllooo I run my own classroom for a reason...so do all of the people I work with...but as long as there is a respect of I am not trying to control you or the situation but work as a team it is all good...
5. Repeat question. Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
Real life this week has been super super busy...I don't know why, it just has and I have been tierd all week. Hubby was a bit cranky and TOM is here and those two together can make a girl crazy.. I had to tell him he needed to get over himself...the car is fixed, our bills are paid, there is food in the fridge. I did a new thing this month. I made a menu for the entire month on what we would eat for dinner. I usually have left overs for lunch so it is a double whammy...so far so good. I took my menu made a grocery list, well the app on my phone did and on Sun. Hubby and I went to Costco and bought food for the entire month, minus milk and fresh veggies...we shall see if the planning saves us money and keeps us from going to the store every other day for one thing and coming home with 20. The kids have been really good about not eating anything without asking as well in case it is needed for a menu item...they also really like knowing what we are going to have for dinner ahead of time. If we need to switch something it is written in pencil so no biggie, but so far so good on that idea..Keeps us all eating healthy, gives me a lunch for the following day and I am not going to the store so often.
Blogging this week has been good. I love reading all of your blogs, they are such good therapy, counseling, encouragment, truth talk and me time....It is fun to share and fun to learn about all of you...been on the blah side with my writing but have commented at least once a day on many of yours... On to a new week and a second fill tomorrow!!!
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Ten Things Thursday...
Following Barbie's lead here!!!
1. Feeling so very blah the past few days. Not excited, not angry, not happy, just BLAH!!! TOM will be leaving soon, maybe I will kick this funk. Been so tierd too...Geez!!!
2. My students have been well behaved and the lessons have been well planned out. We planned 10 weeks as a team so we are dialed in, but there is this one kid I just want to wack him!!! He really annoys me, I can't even squash him with a witty jab...really starting to irritate me!!!
3. I totally feel like this
1. Feeling so very blah the past few days. Not excited, not angry, not happy, just BLAH!!! TOM will be leaving soon, maybe I will kick this funk. Been so tierd too...Geez!!!
2. My students have been well behaved and the lessons have been well planned out. We planned 10 weeks as a team so we are dialed in, but there is this one kid I just want to wack him!!! He really annoys me, I can't even squash him with a witty jab...really starting to irritate me!!!
3. I totally feel like this
4. Have not been to the gym in a few days. I have been working out minus last night and possibly tonight we have a banquet to go to for Hubby's Basketball team...I hate feeling like I am missing out on my workouts it is the strangest thing. Before the thought of the gym was great, but getting there rarely happened now, I have anxiety when I can't go or when there is not enough time in the day to work out in some way.
5. Taking No.1 to DMV after work today she is getting her permit finally...Not ready for that at all...She will have to drive with Hubby, I just can't relax poor girl, what a great support I am for her...
6. I have been feeling so very hungry lately. I know it is because of TOM, but there are times every so often when I am just ravenous!!! I get fill number 2 on Sat. and I am so very ready!!
7. Our car has been out all week...Hopefully today it is ready
8. I got a gel nail polish manicure last Thursday and my nails have not chipped, they are still growing strong and I am so excited about this!!! I shall see how long they last, I am hoping at least 3-4 weeks cuz I can only afford the manicure 1x a month...
9. I have 1 hour and 30 min till the end of school and I am so ready to go!!
10. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!
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